Friday Night

Friday night of course we went out. Jaime was at my house by 8. I had to put McKenzie to bed before i left, cause mom wasn't feeling well. i got ready and by 8:45 we were out, went to chins, had food, drank a little, by 9:15 we were at speakers. It was a blast, everyone was there. Lindsey, Machelle, her friend Ron, Lind's mom was there, Lisa and heather. There was so many people, it was packed in there. I started to hurt, my hip was bothering me, i have no idea why, it all started when i was pregnant with McKenzie, but it hasn't gone away, it happens when i sleep but lately now when i dance, its the first time that's happened, so I'm getting worried now. my knees are hurting too, I'm having a lot of pain when i go up and down stairs. it hurts bad! i was home early, by 150 or so. i was in too much pain to even stand, the booze wasn't even taken the pain away, it was over powering. i got my package in the mail today, hopefully it works, if it does, ull see pictures on myspace in about a month or so,starting from today. keep an eye out for that. anyways, not too much to report, Patrick is with his dad, i pick him up tomorrow. it rained all day today, well on and off, got some thunderstorms. well I'm signing off, my back hurts and I'm tired.. so I'm gonna go to bed or try too.. see ya. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Update on the week

my my, i forgot all about updating on this shit.. Saturday night i did go out again, maria made me, lol.. Nothing really interesting happened, guys tried to hit on me, one even came and asked for a kiss, i told him no and went outside, the asshole harassed me all night, even followed us to the car as we were leaving it was freaky. Sunday, I took my mom's car cause i needed groceries and stuff, or was that Monday, i don't know can't remember now. memory isn't great. think my shit is getting worse, for once in my life i ain't faking no illness, tho many probably think i copied someone else but that ain't true. Tuesday i brought the kids to the 99 , just to get out of the house, Wednesday we did nothing, took the kids outside to play and went to the store. Tomorrow I'm going to my mom's cause it's supposed to be extremely hot outside, well humid they say and I'm not sticking around here with no a/c. Friday i am going out, RJ is supposed to come pick me up, i have to email him make sure that is still a go. - maybe the kids and i will go swimming tomorrow at my mom's.. we'll see how that goes. but usually i don't like taken the kids, they are so hyper that Ill get nervous. not too much to report, still no word yet from unemployment, its going on three weeks, next Sunday will be 4. so i dunno... we'll see. anyways, I'm gonna go, Patrick and i are watching a movie. see ya, www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Last night/Today

Last night was interesting, My mom watched the kids and I went out with Maria to this Portuguese bar in Hudson, It was okay, though i must say maria it wasn't my type of place, but it was fun to go out with ya. I got bored towards to the end and wanted to at least stop at speakers to see people. Finally got her to leave (won't say in details). but we end up in speakers we see people, we are there 20 mins or less and we had to leave, so i was bummed. I came home and again won't say anything in details, i went to sleep...

9am the kids were home, we hung up most of the day, McKenzie took a nap, she got u p, we cleaned the house from top to bottom, i took the kids outside to play, we saw Cheryl and Moe and nick and the kiddies ( which are the cutest). We sat on there for awhile, chat, kids played, Patrick and McKenzie had a blast, but i think kenzie has a new friend... anyways, we were in side now, we came in after two hours of playing outside and such, everyone is sleeping i am here trying to update, so people can read about me, inside of spying to know whats going on.
also for those people who removed me from my space, better make sure your facts are straight before you talk, if ya cant talk like an adult, then don't even confront me about it, cause there is two sides. - but whatever. - I'm gonna go now, but I'll update soon... see ya. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Awesome Day

Today turned out to be an awesome day, let's just say i came into money. Got my bills paid and i'm on the roll of going out this friday even if it's by myself. I'm not staying in, i can't, i'm going stir crazy again. Saturdays I have no sitter, so friday's i have to go out. and 2 weeks ago i went out alone, so whatever i'll do it again, I can't wait till the 10th, i think, holly is gonna come with me, i'll go back to her house too, maybe, it depends. but i know soon, we'll take the kids up to her house and go to the beach, spend the night, be awesome. Went to walmart today cause i needed some stuff, finally got a new fan too, I can survive without a AC, i don't need it! We came home and ordered pizza, mckenzie was in bed by 930, i went over to maria's house we talked and whatnot, Patrick is now sleeping, I'm watching of course a lifetime movie. getting ready for bed. I have to go pee though first, than i am going to lay down. Thought i'd update onthe day since it was a strange yet awesome one, i guess some people work in mysterious ways. see ya, www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Falling behind on updates...

Well I am definitely falling behind on my updates here. Let's see... Tuesday I went to Cambridge and filed to increase my child support. We'll see what happens. Today i went to welfare to try to get some help since i am not working and haven't gotten no news from unemployment. Not sure if I'll get it, but we'll see on that too. Tomorrow I do have a job interview in westboro. I think I'm going to get it, but I'll let you know on that. I am determined to go out this weekend, i have to get away from my house, i don't care if i go out with no money, i need a new place. this past weekend, Patrick was at his dad's.. nothing really happened, i stayed home. wasn't motivated to go out anywhere. not too much to report but a lot to update on as stated in here.. so I'll update that as it comes along. see ya - www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Big update

I haven't updated since i guess sunday according to what this blog says, so there is a lot i have to update on. Monday i can't remember what i did, so that day is out,, Tuesday I was with my mom, we did laundry and came back to her house, Chrissy and Sarah showed up and we all went swimming, including patrick, Kenzie didn't. Wednesday Chrissy and Sarah came up to my house early in the morning we got some stuff ready and headed to my moms to go swimming again, we spent the majority of the day in the pool. Thursday, Patrick, McKenzie and i relaxed at home cause i was sunburned badly and was so tired, McKEnzie went to bed early, Patrick and I played a game, he fell asleep and my friend bernice came by and we sat and talked for awhile. Today I did nothing during the day at 3pm Pat came and picked up patrick he's gone till sunday. Mom pick up and McKenzie around 5, We went to friendlys had dinner, went to the store picked up odds and ends and we came back to her house, where i am now, spending the night, cause i am going stir crazy in my house cause it sucks, i still haven't heard from unemployement yet. Jaime was over the house today and USED me for my computer lol.. I'm not sure if i am going to stay at my moms all weekend but we'll see how it goes tonight. Brian and Sarah haven't even gotten home yet. so we'll see, if they wakeup mckenzie i'll be mad! Anyways, There isnt much to report, i guess i can say life sucks, as far as money and getting bills paid. which actually my cable bill came in, who knows how i am gonna pay that. those losers cost way too much, i can't wait till verizon fios is done setting up in the building then i am get that and get a cheaper bill. they are offering all 3 for 99 bucks for 2 years, i'd be all over that if they hurry up with installation. anyway im gonna go, im tired of sitting at this computer, her computer chair is uncomfortable. See ya www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

How Boring...

What a boring day and life... must be excited to look at my blog just to see what i say, cause im not hiding anything if u all know me well i will post on what or who is bothering me... anyways, today i did nothing as usual... right now i'm watching the hidden secrets of harry potter, i am a big harrypotter fan. which i dont care what anyone says, he's got good book even better movies. new one comes out wednesday i believe, i'd love to see it but that's a no go. maybe mom will pay for patrick and i to go! that's always a plus. im still hung up if i should go to work with chrissy she said she made 4 grand in 3 weeks. that's definately what i need. i could pay off my debt! Everyone is sleeping and i'm gonna go watch what i was and tomorrow i'll update more. if i dont nothing exciting happened... see ya - www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Friday night/Cookout today

Last night was fun, there was tons of people there, of course i went by myself, cause jaime didn't call me soon enough haha... she knew i was there but didnt bother to come, big meany! lol... There was raffles and shit too. i'm sure they raised lots of money for the breast cancer. Today was our family cookout at joey;s house. that's was okay, Patrick and McKenzie actually went into the pool and do did my mom. I ended up burnt. My shoulders and chest. outline of my shit and bra. its starting to hurt. today at the cookout i found out my 13 yr old niece is not doing so well but because of her age i will not say what is going on. lets just say she wants to live with her dad. We got home around 7p tonight, Bernice came down we talked and McKenzie went to bed, she left, Called Jaime back and now i am updating on what happened. Patrick is with my mom since friday night mom babysat and he didn't get to go to her house. Chrissy offered me a job with her, but not sure if she'll hold to it, i'll have to call her this week. Hopefully i found out about my unemployment soon, i need money, i get no help from anything including a state agency. i'm relaying on my mom! which isnt gonna last long. im so tired today, it was a long day. i am going to go to bed now, hopefully fall asleep, my burn hurts. or im gonna have to take a med to go to sleep. anyways, see ya later.... www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

7/5

well over the last few days im stressing and depressed all over again, i feel my life is at a lost again. i'd rather not talk about it on here or in person, i dont need shit flying around that im talking about people so im gonna leave it at that!
i'm on the hunt for a new job probably starting in september, im not gonna waste my time with patrick by working and not able to spend time with him. when it comes to it, i'll figure out what to do with mckenzie if and when i return to work. anyways, mom's hearing is coming up next friday, so maybe we'll actually have money and i'll have my own van without payments. then i can leave behind the shit and start over. im hoping i get the apartment in RI, cause it takes me away from all this and everything going on here, if people want to talk shit about me, a tleast ill be in another state and not able to hear it. if i do go, i will have no contact with anyone from here, nothing personal but i gotta get away and do it without all. start over and be me. anyways, im gonna go for now, the kids and i are gonna clean and i can't wait till this weekend, drinking fest for me, friday and saturday! can't wait!!! See ya around www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Yesterday the 2nd

wow, well let's see... yesterday was such a depressing day, i am officially laid off, they came and took the van and now i'm jobless and carless again!!! also saturday the 30th i checked my mail and after all that threatening that dor did, i got a check worth 5 weeks of child support from rico! HA. pussy actually paid up! Patrick, McKenzie and I walked to the store, i haven't walked in months to the store, we got some toys and i needed cigs. we gotta walk again, we need soda. i need a drink is what i need... all this shit going on is killing me, it sucks! no source of money anywhere, my mom actually paid my cable bill yesterday too, i am so broke... i applied for unemployement but we'll see where that goes. who knows if i am even qualified to get it! i dont know what to do anymore, life was good for awhile but now it's tumbling again, i think i need to go back to my shrink and talk to her. it's bothering me, everything is! maybe friday night i can actually have some fun, hopefully! speakers is having a big party, breast cancer awareness thing, there is a cover but i'll be paying it cause gayle had it and i feel i need to support that, so im not get myself in free, that's wrong! well im gonna go. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Sunday...

today was an okay day. McKenzie and i got up this morning, i drank some coffee she ate her donut with some juice. We played for awhile, she took a nap and i cleaned my house. at 3:30 we went to my mom's, cause i wanted her car to get patrick, well we actually all went together, i actually drove her car while she's in the passenger seat, which is rear. anyways, we got patrick, decided to go to price chopper and get some groceries, i saw marky there too, bighug, talked a few minutes, we checked out and came home... Patrick is getting a visit from the tooth fairy tonight, he lost his tooth! Patrick and i cleaned again after we got home, McKenzie is now sleeping and we are vegging out. I'm getting tired though, i think tomorrow i am going to take the kids to the park on farm rd tomorrow afternoon, let them play and get tired. well i'm off, im exhausted. See ya, www.myspace.com/mysterious1431