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well over the last few days im stressing and depressed all over again, i feel my life is at a lost again. i'd rather not talk about it on here or in person, i dont need shit flying around that im talking about people so im gonna leave it at that!
i'm on the hunt for a new job probably starting in september, im not gonna waste my time with patrick by working and not able to spend time with him. when it comes to it, i'll figure out what to do with mckenzie if and when i return to work. anyways, mom's hearing is coming up next friday, so maybe we'll actually have money and i'll have my own van without payments. then i can leave behind the shit and start over. im hoping i get the apartment in RI, cause it takes me away from all this and everything going on here, if people want to talk shit about me, a tleast ill be in another state and not able to hear it. if i do go, i will have no contact with anyone from here, nothing personal but i gotta get away and do it without all. start over and be me. anyways, im gonna go for now, the kids and i are gonna clean and i can't wait till this weekend, drinking fest for me, friday and saturday! can't wait!!! See ya around www.myspace.com/mysterious1431