Yesterday the 2nd

wow, well let's see... yesterday was such a depressing day, i am officially laid off, they came and took the van and now i'm jobless and carless again!!! also saturday the 30th i checked my mail and after all that threatening that dor did, i got a check worth 5 weeks of child support from rico! HA. pussy actually paid up! Patrick, McKenzie and I walked to the store, i haven't walked in months to the store, we got some toys and i needed cigs. we gotta walk again, we need soda. i need a drink is what i need... all this shit going on is killing me, it sucks! no source of money anywhere, my mom actually paid my cable bill yesterday too, i am so broke... i applied for unemployement but we'll see where that goes. who knows if i am even qualified to get it! i dont know what to do anymore, life was good for awhile but now it's tumbling again, i think i need to go back to my shrink and talk to her. it's bothering me, everything is! maybe friday night i can actually have some fun, hopefully! speakers is having a big party, breast cancer awareness thing, there is a cover but i'll be paying it cause gayle had it and i feel i need to support that, so im not get myself in free, that's wrong! well im gonna go. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431