Over that the last few weeks...

since work has started I've been real busy and tired, but it's a good job cause i get to keep my daughter with me and watch her at all times, shes not with a psycho at a daycare she's with me! over the last few months, I've been trying to potty train her, it's going well, she knows when she has to go or thinks, cause she tells me, pee pee or kaka, but she'll get soon enough, she's very smart, she's been saying two and three word sentences for months, which is smart, she's very brave too, she's not a scared little girl, she's not clingy neither, i don't keep her that close to me, you cant do that anyhow, than your kids have no freedom and stuff and always have to be attached, and you yourself have no life if your always watching out for your children, but she is somewhat always with me, but that's okay cause she has her own independence. she's also in pull ups, she dresses herself, feeds herself etc. shes very smart for her age, I'm gonna put her in gymnastics too when that age comes about. anyways, work has been good, i can't wait till we actually have a full week, instead of all these holidays off . this week coming should be good with the check of next week, this week coming, the check will suck, but it's okay. at least i work and pay my own bills. Patrick is doing well in school, he learned how to tell time, he's doing better at reading and he's learning how to cook, not anything big, but we're teaching him, he's a smart kid too, he loves to clean, he vacuums, does dishes, he's awesome at it.

I went to the club this past Friday after 2 weeks of not going out and it was okay, details can't be disclosed, but we'll just say a girl i didn't know and her man were having some issues it lead to others being involved and wow it was a mess, but the night ended okay and was back to normal. i hope she got to where she wanted okay!!

I'm looking forward to tax season this year, because I'm hoping to move out of this hole, cause i cant stand it anymore. and I'm gonna find a real apartment to live in, till another opp comes into play. than if i still have money left over i wanna get myself a van. but we'll plan that out when the time comes . I'm also getting a new kitty, her name is cowkitty, she's gonna be here hopefully on Tuesday, I'll update on my myspace of her, I'll put a picture of her up on here too. anyways i'm taking this night to be up late and take advantage, tomorrow i have to go grocery shopping and take Patrick back, cause he's got school Monday. I guess I'll leave it at this ... one more thing, i finally got my computer back after it crashed, thanks to joey!! :) also my BFF Nichole L is coming home in a few weeks and i cannot wait cause she's my partner in crime. i do have another partner in crime, but the other girl and i like to cause other stuff lmao.. anyways, I'm off till another update, can't promise when that will be... see ya. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Yep, an update

First off let's say after all said and done , yes Victoria and i are talking again, things are okay with that and on that end. A few nights ago we went and talked to Nicole about what was being said etc. As she said them, i see some issues in the stories, especially being said in different ways. but whatever. Supposedly how everyone in the world said that Jaime and i are having drama or issues, that is NOT what i said. I said she called me some names, doesn't matter if i took it the wrong or right way, i felt offended. she deleted me, so i deleted everyone else, because you are all my friends, we all talk to the same people, at least if no one is on my page, no one will be in the middle of shit ... ( i have prove of what i said). i don't hate anyone or mad at anyone. Victoria doesn't talk to Jaime and if she was talking shit she would tell me, but to have it clarified, I'd like to know exactly what she s aid, cause we can correct it! i can;t stand how i say one thing and it all gets twisted.. bunch of fucking games! why can;t you people just get along and have normal friendships, like i remember. I've never been in this much of "drama" circles in my life. enough about that.. on to other news.

Friday night i went to speakers but didn't stay, than we went to baby daddy's house ( for his wife reading this) i left a note on his car to call me, yes i did threaten him but it was for him to call, and he did and called me a cunt three times... now it's on, cause i ain't fucking around anymore. either he wants to have ties with his kids or he doesn't ... he better pay all child support. or he dies! and i mean it, i cant take his shit anymore. he's nothing but a liar, cheater and whore. he changes his phone number cause i have to harass him every month for my child support! so, he will get his, i know plenty of people to kick his ass and he better be scared cause there isn't no one to help him, maybe if he stayed away from people like girls he wouldn't be in trouble! also to clarify, Victoria wasn't the cause of him returning to jail, it was someone else who tattled on him and he got in trouble... don't believe me, ask the courts who tattled and got a summons and didn't show! i don't know about him anymore, he's a fucking whore, he's probably already cheated on his wife and hopefully she finally left him, hes nothing and two of us know his history! anyways, yesterday was fun, out all day... also got my car for my work, it's a car too. which is cool. now today Sunday, just relaxing, than tomorrow is the parade so who knows what's gonna go on, Tuesday i start work, lol... I'm gonna go, cause later i gotta go home and clean. i guess ill update soon, with work starting i dunno, ill update later tomorrow with some pictures, if i can! see ya, www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

no updating for awhile

I wont be updating for awhile, school is starting up again and I'll be returning to work, so i may be too tired to actually write, but i will do weekend updates ... i did go to the Dr's today and i do have bursitis and i have to take Motrin 800 and have PT for 6 weeks, so I'm hoping that works, or next step is cortisone shots. anyways, everything is going okay, i won't elaborate on that, but let's just say its okay... see ya soon and i promise my readers ill update sometimes soon ;-) cause i just love nosy people - www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Just a few things to talk about

Friday night was interesting...everyone was out, both Lisa's and Kristen, which shocked me i never expected it, but it was fun and I'd love to have another fun night like that again. my ex best friend of 20 plus years got married too on Saturday and there is drama and lies behind it, cause no one really close to her was in it, but whatever on that. as of Friday i also have a new job, driving students again , i start the 30Th! i can't wait... today i went shopping for Patrick's school clothes, also on Saturday i order a sprint phone, i consider getting their service, small down payment but I'm patiently waiting for it arrive in the mail by ups. but yeah than i came home from shopping and was soooo tired i fell asleep, cause the kids were sleeping so i took advantaged. than i got up cause the phone was ringing off the hook and i was pissed, so i didn't take anyone calls, my moment of madness, sorry if i didn't answer, especially to all and mom, but i wasn't in the mood for talkness, i was tired, in pain and not available for a normal conversation... anyways, i saw pictures of the wonderful marriage too, but i have no comment for it, cause if i comment it wont be nice, so good luck, best wishes, hope ya stay together, who knows, marriage is different than a relationship... anyways I'm off, I'm tired, see ya and ill try to update again when i feel in the mood... www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

This Morning

Let's just update on my hip problem. I've had two nights now with no sleep, even when i sleep on my stomach or back it still throbs or goes completely numb, i try to get it to pass or ill just ignore it, but then it comes more numb then painful, i just dont know what to do, if i beg the dr to push up the appt or what. i have problems with my knees but not this bad. i just dont know how much longer i can deal, not only that but friday nights are my night and when i start the night and dance away, my hip starts to hurt and it bums me out, it gets so painful i have to sit, few weeks ago i had to leave the club an hour and half earlier than normal. - on other notes, i want to get my nails done today, i was trying this thing where it grows out your nails, but i feel so bare without nails i just have to do it and get it over with, im waiting for my unemployment check, it might come today, or maybe tomorrow. i got my first one already, 4 weeks worth, it was heaven, i paid my bills, it was great. i still have left over money, go figure. Patrick and Kenzie are fighting as usual, she's screaming and he's crying, i don't know what to do with them, he won't share with her and then he'll start with "everyone hates him or doesn't like him" and he'll start crying... i dunno.. but ill update more later if i can't sleep! See ya www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Friday night

Friday night was fun, Everyone was there, of course some was a little worried about what would happen, but it all worked out, We did have to leave early, but it was for the best, hope ur feeling better leese. a fight did break out, but it wasn't any of us, but it was interesting.. anyways, after a 2 hour journey trying to get where we were trying to be, i finally got home, got chewed out, but it's okay now, over with.. and today was okay - i was in pain, my hip isn't getting anymore, i have to take one more pill before bed. Monday is my dermo appt, then at the end of the month i have my ortho appt, i think i am just falling apart, it's sicking. but maybe it's for the best, maybe i'll get declared d isabled and can't work, yeah right, i'd be so bored at home doing nothing, but it's getting to the point where i can barely walk without pain! ill be old at 30 before i know it, my body has just finally giving me a hint it's time to settle... Im getting my computer fixed this weekend, but im dropping it off to get fixed and ill get it back within a few weeks, thanks to joe, luv ya! jaime is letting use her laptop till then, i luv ya too! and thanks girlie. anyways, im gonna get back to cleaning the house, then i have to get back to talking to nichole, so i'll be updating tomorrow maybe - laundry day, so we'll see... i have so much laundry to do!! see ya - www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Wow

Wow it's been a long time since i've done this, but i can explain. my computer crashed after 5 years of working fine, no problems and all the sudden, so i've been using nothing or going to my mom's. i'm getting my computer fixed, so, but wont get it back for atleast 2 weeks, so miss jaime is gonna have to help me out, of course it was my fault on tuesday though. so that's that... on other notes, i finally got back all my financial needs and then some. i may even be getting a job doing what i did before. we'll see, they said they would call as soon as another office was set up. if they don't call by next week i'll call her. but i guess im doing alright, finally getting everything back on track. the thing that has saved money, was the cell phone it's not gone, i have a pre paid one now to cut down my talk time, saves me money. no monthly bills. - on other notes, some shit has been going on, but nothing i can't control. or afraid of, like someone said they had words for me, but hasn't confronted me yet, i'm still waiting and im not hard to find, i can only be in two places that the person knows personally. but i could care less, i was right and she is wrong, i told the truth and now shes trying to make it seem like i lied. but whatever... i could be more mean than i am, but i aint in the mood, i have my own shit to worry about, not other peoples crap and stupidity. im gonna get ready for bed, im tired and shit, so i need to get to bed and wake up early tomorrow. i'll update when i can, cause tomorrow i think im going home we'll see how the weather turns out.
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Friday Night

Friday night of course we went out. Jaime was at my house by 8. I had to put McKenzie to bed before i left, cause mom wasn't feeling well. i got ready and by 8:45 we were out, went to chins, had food, drank a little, by 9:15 we were at speakers. It was a blast, everyone was there. Lindsey, Machelle, her friend Ron, Lind's mom was there, Lisa and heather. There was so many people, it was packed in there. I started to hurt, my hip was bothering me, i have no idea why, it all started when i was pregnant with McKenzie, but it hasn't gone away, it happens when i sleep but lately now when i dance, its the first time that's happened, so I'm getting worried now. my knees are hurting too, I'm having a lot of pain when i go up and down stairs. it hurts bad! i was home early, by 150 or so. i was in too much pain to even stand, the booze wasn't even taken the pain away, it was over powering. i got my package in the mail today, hopefully it works, if it does, ull see pictures on myspace in about a month or so,starting from today. keep an eye out for that. anyways, not too much to report, Patrick is with his dad, i pick him up tomorrow. it rained all day today, well on and off, got some thunderstorms. well I'm signing off, my back hurts and I'm tired.. so I'm gonna go to bed or try too.. see ya. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Update on the week

my my, i forgot all about updating on this shit.. Saturday night i did go out again, maria made me, lol.. Nothing really interesting happened, guys tried to hit on me, one even came and asked for a kiss, i told him no and went outside, the asshole harassed me all night, even followed us to the car as we were leaving it was freaky. Sunday, I took my mom's car cause i needed groceries and stuff, or was that Monday, i don't know can't remember now. memory isn't great. think my shit is getting worse, for once in my life i ain't faking no illness, tho many probably think i copied someone else but that ain't true. Tuesday i brought the kids to the 99 , just to get out of the house, Wednesday we did nothing, took the kids outside to play and went to the store. Tomorrow I'm going to my mom's cause it's supposed to be extremely hot outside, well humid they say and I'm not sticking around here with no a/c. Friday i am going out, RJ is supposed to come pick me up, i have to email him make sure that is still a go. - maybe the kids and i will go swimming tomorrow at my mom's.. we'll see how that goes. but usually i don't like taken the kids, they are so hyper that Ill get nervous. not too much to report, still no word yet from unemployment, its going on three weeks, next Sunday will be 4. so i dunno... we'll see. anyways, I'm gonna go, Patrick and i are watching a movie. see ya, www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Last night/Today

Last night was interesting, My mom watched the kids and I went out with Maria to this Portuguese bar in Hudson, It was okay, though i must say maria it wasn't my type of place, but it was fun to go out with ya. I got bored towards to the end and wanted to at least stop at speakers to see people. Finally got her to leave (won't say in details). but we end up in speakers we see people, we are there 20 mins or less and we had to leave, so i was bummed. I came home and again won't say anything in details, i went to sleep...

9am the kids were home, we hung up most of the day, McKenzie took a nap, she got u p, we cleaned the house from top to bottom, i took the kids outside to play, we saw Cheryl and Moe and nick and the kiddies ( which are the cutest). We sat on there for awhile, chat, kids played, Patrick and McKenzie had a blast, but i think kenzie has a new friend... anyways, we were in side now, we came in after two hours of playing outside and such, everyone is sleeping i am here trying to update, so people can read about me, inside of spying to know whats going on.
also for those people who removed me from my space, better make sure your facts are straight before you talk, if ya cant talk like an adult, then don't even confront me about it, cause there is two sides. - but whatever. - I'm gonna go now, but I'll update soon... see ya. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Awesome Day

Today turned out to be an awesome day, let's just say i came into money. Got my bills paid and i'm on the roll of going out this friday even if it's by myself. I'm not staying in, i can't, i'm going stir crazy again. Saturdays I have no sitter, so friday's i have to go out. and 2 weeks ago i went out alone, so whatever i'll do it again, I can't wait till the 10th, i think, holly is gonna come with me, i'll go back to her house too, maybe, it depends. but i know soon, we'll take the kids up to her house and go to the beach, spend the night, be awesome. Went to walmart today cause i needed some stuff, finally got a new fan too, I can survive without a AC, i don't need it! We came home and ordered pizza, mckenzie was in bed by 930, i went over to maria's house we talked and whatnot, Patrick is now sleeping, I'm watching of course a lifetime movie. getting ready for bed. I have to go pee though first, than i am going to lay down. Thought i'd update onthe day since it was a strange yet awesome one, i guess some people work in mysterious ways. see ya, www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Falling behind on updates...

Well I am definitely falling behind on my updates here. Let's see... Tuesday I went to Cambridge and filed to increase my child support. We'll see what happens. Today i went to welfare to try to get some help since i am not working and haven't gotten no news from unemployment. Not sure if I'll get it, but we'll see on that too. Tomorrow I do have a job interview in westboro. I think I'm going to get it, but I'll let you know on that. I am determined to go out this weekend, i have to get away from my house, i don't care if i go out with no money, i need a new place. this past weekend, Patrick was at his dad's.. nothing really happened, i stayed home. wasn't motivated to go out anywhere. not too much to report but a lot to update on as stated in here.. so I'll update that as it comes along. see ya - www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Big update

I haven't updated since i guess sunday according to what this blog says, so there is a lot i have to update on. Monday i can't remember what i did, so that day is out,, Tuesday I was with my mom, we did laundry and came back to her house, Chrissy and Sarah showed up and we all went swimming, including patrick, Kenzie didn't. Wednesday Chrissy and Sarah came up to my house early in the morning we got some stuff ready and headed to my moms to go swimming again, we spent the majority of the day in the pool. Thursday, Patrick, McKenzie and i relaxed at home cause i was sunburned badly and was so tired, McKEnzie went to bed early, Patrick and I played a game, he fell asleep and my friend bernice came by and we sat and talked for awhile. Today I did nothing during the day at 3pm Pat came and picked up patrick he's gone till sunday. Mom pick up and McKenzie around 5, We went to friendlys had dinner, went to the store picked up odds and ends and we came back to her house, where i am now, spending the night, cause i am going stir crazy in my house cause it sucks, i still haven't heard from unemployement yet. Jaime was over the house today and USED me for my computer lol.. I'm not sure if i am going to stay at my moms all weekend but we'll see how it goes tonight. Brian and Sarah haven't even gotten home yet. so we'll see, if they wakeup mckenzie i'll be mad! Anyways, There isnt much to report, i guess i can say life sucks, as far as money and getting bills paid. which actually my cable bill came in, who knows how i am gonna pay that. those losers cost way too much, i can't wait till verizon fios is done setting up in the building then i am get that and get a cheaper bill. they are offering all 3 for 99 bucks for 2 years, i'd be all over that if they hurry up with installation. anyway im gonna go, im tired of sitting at this computer, her computer chair is uncomfortable. See ya www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

How Boring...

What a boring day and life... must be excited to look at my blog just to see what i say, cause im not hiding anything if u all know me well i will post on what or who is bothering me... anyways, today i did nothing as usual... right now i'm watching the hidden secrets of harry potter, i am a big harrypotter fan. which i dont care what anyone says, he's got good book even better movies. new one comes out wednesday i believe, i'd love to see it but that's a no go. maybe mom will pay for patrick and i to go! that's always a plus. im still hung up if i should go to work with chrissy she said she made 4 grand in 3 weeks. that's definately what i need. i could pay off my debt! Everyone is sleeping and i'm gonna go watch what i was and tomorrow i'll update more. if i dont nothing exciting happened... see ya - www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Friday night/Cookout today

Last night was fun, there was tons of people there, of course i went by myself, cause jaime didn't call me soon enough haha... she knew i was there but didnt bother to come, big meany! lol... There was raffles and shit too. i'm sure they raised lots of money for the breast cancer. Today was our family cookout at joey;s house. that's was okay, Patrick and McKenzie actually went into the pool and do did my mom. I ended up burnt. My shoulders and chest. outline of my shit and bra. its starting to hurt. today at the cookout i found out my 13 yr old niece is not doing so well but because of her age i will not say what is going on. lets just say she wants to live with her dad. We got home around 7p tonight, Bernice came down we talked and McKenzie went to bed, she left, Called Jaime back and now i am updating on what happened. Patrick is with my mom since friday night mom babysat and he didn't get to go to her house. Chrissy offered me a job with her, but not sure if she'll hold to it, i'll have to call her this week. Hopefully i found out about my unemployment soon, i need money, i get no help from anything including a state agency. i'm relaying on my mom! which isnt gonna last long. im so tired today, it was a long day. i am going to go to bed now, hopefully fall asleep, my burn hurts. or im gonna have to take a med to go to sleep. anyways, see ya later.... www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

7/5

well over the last few days im stressing and depressed all over again, i feel my life is at a lost again. i'd rather not talk about it on here or in person, i dont need shit flying around that im talking about people so im gonna leave it at that!
i'm on the hunt for a new job probably starting in september, im not gonna waste my time with patrick by working and not able to spend time with him. when it comes to it, i'll figure out what to do with mckenzie if and when i return to work. anyways, mom's hearing is coming up next friday, so maybe we'll actually have money and i'll have my own van without payments. then i can leave behind the shit and start over. im hoping i get the apartment in RI, cause it takes me away from all this and everything going on here, if people want to talk shit about me, a tleast ill be in another state and not able to hear it. if i do go, i will have no contact with anyone from here, nothing personal but i gotta get away and do it without all. start over and be me. anyways, im gonna go for now, the kids and i are gonna clean and i can't wait till this weekend, drinking fest for me, friday and saturday! can't wait!!! See ya around www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Yesterday the 2nd

wow, well let's see... yesterday was such a depressing day, i am officially laid off, they came and took the van and now i'm jobless and carless again!!! also saturday the 30th i checked my mail and after all that threatening that dor did, i got a check worth 5 weeks of child support from rico! HA. pussy actually paid up! Patrick, McKenzie and I walked to the store, i haven't walked in months to the store, we got some toys and i needed cigs. we gotta walk again, we need soda. i need a drink is what i need... all this shit going on is killing me, it sucks! no source of money anywhere, my mom actually paid my cable bill yesterday too, i am so broke... i applied for unemployement but we'll see where that goes. who knows if i am even qualified to get it! i dont know what to do anymore, life was good for awhile but now it's tumbling again, i think i need to go back to my shrink and talk to her. it's bothering me, everything is! maybe friday night i can actually have some fun, hopefully! speakers is having a big party, breast cancer awareness thing, there is a cover but i'll be paying it cause gayle had it and i feel i need to support that, so im not get myself in free, that's wrong! well im gonna go. www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Sunday...

today was an okay day. McKenzie and i got up this morning, i drank some coffee she ate her donut with some juice. We played for awhile, she took a nap and i cleaned my house. at 3:30 we went to my mom's, cause i wanted her car to get patrick, well we actually all went together, i actually drove her car while she's in the passenger seat, which is rear. anyways, we got patrick, decided to go to price chopper and get some groceries, i saw marky there too, bighug, talked a few minutes, we checked out and came home... Patrick is getting a visit from the tooth fairy tonight, he lost his tooth! Patrick and i cleaned again after we got home, McKenzie is now sleeping and we are vegging out. I'm getting tired though, i think tomorrow i am going to take the kids to the park on farm rd tomorrow afternoon, let them play and get tired. well i'm off, im exhausted. See ya, www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Friday day/Night

Well friday night was okay, i was hoping for a little more fun but didn't get anywhere with that. We were running late, Jaime really didn't have a sitter and she had to pick up her kids at 1:30 but we left early. We went to friday's we saw everyone. Everyone got along, which is better that way, who knows if everyone will become friends again. Patrick went with his dad yesterday, McKenzie and i hung out at my moms till i left to go out, McKenzie stayed at my mom's overnight. I was home by 2a. I stopped off at speakers and saw some people. It was cool, but i started to sober up on my own so i ended up with a headache, I usually just go right to bed but it was early and i guess i just sobered up. went to bed around 3a, then got up around 10:30, drank my coffee , got McKenzie, now we're home. She's taking a nap, probably just veg out for the day, I gotta pick up patrick tomorrow, leave here around 4p. Week of july 9th my mom has vacation, so i'm hoping to go to salem, nh. to atleast have some f un, I might have to bring someone, cause i know my mom aint gonna have fun with me. I'll update that later. I've been thinking on what to do with work, just not sure yet. anyways, i'm gonna go and relax while she's sleeping... if more to update tonight, i'll add more but for now, tata... www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Sorry...

It's been awhle since i've updated. Last few days have been rough. it's been hot and unbareable. Yesterday I went to my moms for the day cause it was so outside and the kids needed it cool and since she has AC we went there. stayed there for a long time, almost til 9pm. Tuesday i did get my hair done but it still didn't come out they way i wanted it to . Today was an okay day, We went outside and got some air, but most the day sucked, it was hot out, boring...Talked on the phone tonight with some people, it was a good conversation, like old times. Jaime and i are trying to figure out where to go friday night, but i think i have it down on where we are going. I just want to have a good time without drama for once... last week was awesome, Jaime, Machelle and i had a blast, speakers was alright, i saw willy which was awesome cause i haven't seen him in awhile, but we had fun, drunk but fun! well i guess i'll take off, nothing really excited happened, but i do try to update. Friday night updated will probably happen saturday afternoon. See ya.

What a day!

I am so hot and irritated of what today as given. i woke up this morning and went to the office and did what i was supposed to do and still feel scared. but they come tomorrow to fix it, so hopefully nothing, plus my mom said there was nothing. then i called my work for my letter and she's gonna give me a letter stating my last day and when i return. so hopefully my benefits are turned back on, i may have to ask gayle for hhelp cause cable is gonna get shut off if i dont pay that and obviously been out of work so i cant pay shit! patrick went to the dentist, they are gonna wait atleast afew months to see if the bottom babies fall out on their own cause the adult ones are not totally in just yet and could pop out the other ones, he also has NO cavities. which is awesome, he got a check up plus cleaning! i myself am just wiiped out, i can barely breathe, im hot, i cant stand it anymore. i feel like puting my fridge in my living room, make it an ice box. once i get the money im gonna buy those a/c that can go out of the window with the hose thing, then the l.r will be cooooll.. or we are all sleeping in patrick's room. anyways, not much today, i get my hair done tomorrow at 11am if all goes well i'll post a picture here and on myspace. see ya
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First Entry

Well let's see where go i begin... We will start off since June 14Th, which was technically my last day of work, i guess runs were supposed to pick up a week later and it's now 2 weeks later and I'm still unemployed. i also might have my benefits turned off cause i supposedly made too much money. but I'll have to get a letter from my boss stating that was basically laid off from the 14Th till further notice, i mean it's not a lie. i am going to try to get to another a driving company on Monday. Patrick has arrived, been here since the 18Th. he's here for the summer with alternative weekends with his father. July 7Th is our 4Th of July party i can't wait, it's SO much fun over there and it's not even around in this area. -- this weekend was fun too, Friday we didn't go out, we decided to go out Saturday, speakers was busy and it was fun, we went to Friday's first, Machelle drank like three martini's, but it looked good , then we all went to speakers and mean i was buzzing by the time i left, and finally saw willy too after i don't know, months... it was good to cuddle and have a good time with everyone, wait til the pictures are posted. you'll laugh your ass off, and that's literally thanks to Phil lol... this week is gonna be hell trying to figure out what to do about my job, should i stay or go... it's making me confused. i want to move out of the zoo too, i hate it here, it's disgusting and the noise, fights and everything else is mind boggling. i hate it, hopefully the place in RI or sud bury responds soon. anyways, it's getting a little late, so i am gonna bounce off here and write a new blog tomorrow or every other day, I'll keep updating cause i know my life is so interesting to some. oh yeah we got a new edition to our family, her name is checkers. pics up soon. peace... www.myspace.com/mysterious1431

Mel